For all the girls I've loved before... lol lam, written to one who shares (co-authors) blogs long sleeping and memories long buried in the corners of the mind and written gardens far from daily life paths today... still, it turns me on. :)
It was that video (above) that came on after this video (to the right, posted by my most recent baby sister) (and the laughter came with the next three videos below) as the universe and youtube gave me cause to reflect on memories of this life and the laughter of acceptance and appreciation warmed the cockles of the heart still beating (in case you wondered) once again.
Even more amusing might be that the next video youtube chose was Billy Joel's Uptown Girl and I always wondered if down deep you might have secretly wanted to be one (or did you just toy with the idea), but in any case, I stopped by here to drop these words because I wondered just what Drops Of Jupiter meant to you and whether we saw similar connections in it. Was I the one who went off looking for myself out there (much against my will as it was your decision), or was that you doing that with me gone? When I am centered, I know me and what I am looking for is the one who can love as I love, with infantile unconditional trust and infinite endless unconditional love in the physical reality of this world. Still haven't found the one I'm looking for, but I understand how challenging doing that can be better than I ever have. I still don't accept that it is an impossible dream though. So I'll keep dreaming and smiling and laughing at the reminders of how profound and foolish and joyous and sad and euphoric and painful and amazingly emotional (the roller coaster ride just keeps on rolling) and wondrously wonderful this life has been as I continue living in the moment and hoping and anticipating the next moment when everything will change and everyone will let love overcome fear. :)
Imagine :)
So how are you? I wonder more than I post here and maybe that is true for you too. You may not get a notice in your email when I post here or perhaps you just ignore it or put it off until the time to respond is right an that right time never comes for whatever reason, but whatever happens at your end, I am right here waiting for a response (and my email will tell me it arrived) because I don't waste time or love or life letting go of people who I adopted as family (but you know that) and whether that is because I never knew biological family (nurture) or because I simply am as I am (by nature or choice or both), I am as I am with spinach and La Cage Aux Folles references dancing through my mind) and I am still the happiest aware person I know.
Thumbs up to the sky (Douglas Adams understands) and hope for the miracle humans seem to need to survive, I wish you and anyone who thinks of me (I don't exist for them if they don't) and everyone else peace and love and happiness and a self-sufficient sense of security that lets love overcome fear. I hope you are smiling more than frowning in your life and may these words, if you find them, give you cause to widen your smile. If just for a moment, remember you were and are loved by me.
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